Hello! I have some huge news and I do not even know how to put it into words. A huge part of my identity has been “teacher.” If I was not teaching science, I was teaching soccer! I had to quit coaching a few years back due to my busy schedule and now, an even bigger decision had to be made.
My health has been suffering for about two years now. I have been battling infertility for about that long, prolonged injuries, and increased anxiety. I cannot work out like I used to due to my injuries. I cannot have my family like I planned due to unknown infertility issues. I cannot play soccer like how I used to due to anxiety, doubt, and injuries.
It is time to take control of my life again. However, to do this, I have to take a huge risk. I have to quit teaching. Teaching is a wonderful thing. It empowers yourself to keep getting better. It forms relationships with so many people. However, it is also one of the most stressful things a human being can put themselves through. The teaching atmosphere right now is quite toxic. My anxiety was always through the roof. My doctor finally had to talk with me about it and was very blunt.
Want a family? Get rid of anxiety.
Want time to heal? Get rid of anxiety.
Want a healthy relationships with yourself? Get rid of anxiety.
Easier said than done.
Now I deal with guilt. I feel guilty walking away from education when I feel like it needs teachers the most. But, North Carolina is doing its damnest to destroy public education and I can feel the heat from my own state. My bosses and the people I worked with are AMAZING… I just wish the governing bodies were the same.
I also deal with fear. Can I run this business and be someone with only one job? Can I do this? This is all insane to me! I am doing something I just used to do for fun FULL TIME!? I am going to attempt this and do my best. I am going to pave a way for me. I would love to bring my teaching knowledge into it somehow as well… I’ll have to brainstorm.
I always hated the question, what do you want to be when you grow up? What does that mean? Why does a career define what you want to be? The question should be, how do you want to live your life?
Well, I know I want a family. I know I want to be able to run and play soccer without pain. I know I want to be strong and healthy. I know I want to make a good living being happy. I want less stress.
So… this is me.
Hello, my name is Aimee Sue and I am the owner and creator of Aimee Sue Photography and this is what I do, full time. I cannot wait to meet you. Happy New Year!